Could this be true....Potentially... Something new I'm trying. Normal people call it selfish. From what I understand, selfish is being concerned about yourself and you needs and wants before ANYone else...HA! As funny as that is to me, I think that is going to be my new approach for a while.
Lately, I haven't really felt like myself. To be honest, I have been worrying about so much stuff, that it keeps me up at night (obviously lol). So I decided that it was time for me to take a short hiatus... nothing personal against anyone but since I'm so use to being "there" for everyone else I am going to see how it works to be "here" for myself.
Why the hiatus? Well, i think I just need a break from anything that I feel does not help me get out of the situation I am in right now (goes faaarr beyond the fact that I don't have a JOB, although that's a huge chunk). I'm not running away from my problems, I'm solving them which includes my hiatus from those who try so hard to be my friend that they forget to actually be one!!!! Most importantly, I am kind of sick of "trying" to explain how hard I am "trying"...why waste that time explaining when I could actually spending that time "trying"? (think about that one)
There is no doubt that I love everyone in my life but sometime you have to do what is best for YOU! Sooo, in the meantime....I'm back to trying...this selfishness actually is not all that bad...
LOL ok ok I must admit, I know that is contradictory to what I believe (Jesus would never act like that!) But i think that shows just how human I am....my needs and wants right now are most important to me now because they haven't been in a while and I think I need to take a step back and figure out what I need!
...more to come...
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